Anxiety is a Chain Reaction

Tuesday spent 2.5 hours at the mall so I could go to the apple store.  You would think this was positive:

1.) At least it happened before we went overseas
2.) All I lost were a few photos and text messages
3.) I was able to go to Babies R Us and buy some expensive travel crap for our trip

But no. Now I feel overwhelmed. I had to shuffle plans for the rest of the week and it's making me freak out. Normally I'm a great traveler/ packer/ organizer.  This time I feel lost and don't know where to start. How can I pack baby stuff that I will need between now and then? How will I find the time to make a list? And this is only for my carry-on bag!

So what do I do? Start canceling plans.

This does not make me feel good. I already went for two days without a phone and now I'm going to have to miss out on a few social commitments. Talk about extending out the isolation. What is the universe trying to tell me?

I blogged about my feelings and was greeted by a touching response. Messages were still coming in when my phone died and I worry that kind people will think they are being ignored.

See what I mean- it all starts with a phone and suddenly I'm blowing off my friends and have to take a flight with no luggage. I'm being a bit dramatic here to make a point but still...

My second appointment with the shrink (I don't even know the difference between a therapist and a psychologist) is today.  I'm really looking forward to getting into things. The first visit was just me blabbing about my background (for two hours- can you say issues?)  I'm just ready to get my hands on some tools to help me control my brain.