Fear is one of those things that gets in the way of vulnerability– a trait that I’ve learned to take on as a massive source of strength and power.
Ok here goes *shudder*
This book has been started, then discarded, over many years. I struggled with what I wanted to say and with how to write without a filter.
There. I said it. Now you can hold me accountable as I go and wash my granny panties (because I was scared shitless to tell you that).
I used to tell people about every grand idea I ever had. Starting such-and-such a website, project, degree. And I learned to stop telling people about my brainstorms until they were already complete or at least underway. If something didn’t pan out I would suffer in silence. Now I think perhaps there is a better way.
Let me explain.
Putting it all out there on the line (along with embarrassing undergarments) can be terrifying if not bodily fluid inducing. If I’m honest I will tell you that in a way- I’m relieved I told you about the book. If I don’t complete it we could look at it as a failure or we could look at it as: “Well shoot- I tried to accomplish this goal and now I’m disappointed.” And I think the latter will promote a heck of a lot more support and empathy.
The point is to be more honest, vulnerable, real and you may just be surprised at the results.