Whats up with your phone Mommy?

All it takes is one thing to tip the first anxiety domino. Monday it was my iPhone.

While feeding Lavinia her lunch, we were listening to Spotify and all the sudden the phone went blue and shut down. It was stuck in recovery mode and would not reboot….just when I felt like I was getting things under control.

Tuesday spent 2.5 hours at the mall so I could go to the apple store.   You would think this was a positive in many ways:

1.) At least it happened before we went overseas
2.) All I lost were a few photos and text messages
3.) I was able to go to Babies R Us and buy some expensive travel crap for our trip

But no.  Now I feel overwhelmed. I had to shuffle plans for the rest of the week and it’s making me freak out.  Normally I’m a great traveller/ packer/ organizer.  This time I feel lost and don’t know where to start.  How can I pack baby stuff that I will need between now and then?  How will I find the time to make a list? And this is only for my carry-on bag!

So what do I do?  Start cancelling plans.

This does not make me feel good.  I already went two days without a phone and now I’m going to have to miss out on a few social commitments.  Talk about extending out the isolation.  What is the universe trying to tell me?

I blogged about my feelings and was greeted by a touching response.  Messages were still coming in when my phone died and I worry that kind people will think they are being ignored.

See what I mean- it all starts with a phone and suddenly I’m blowing off my friends and have to take a flight with no luggage.  I’m being a bit dramatic here to make a point but still…

My second appointment with the shrink is today.  I’m really looking forward to getting into things.  The first visit was just me blabbing about my background (for two hours- can you say issues?)  I’m just ready to get my hands on some tools to help me control my brain.

Author: dawnrieniets

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2 thoughts on “Anxiety is a Chain Reaction

  1. Dawn Noelle you make your Dad so proud I find it hard to express in words. You have become a wonderful mum. With the awesome changes in your life sometimes your thoughts came become tangled and confused. You have a wonderful man in your corner and a gift from God named Lavinia. I see God in her beautiful face and thank him with prayers for you. Prayers have helped me through some of my darker moments and I will continue to pray for you

    Posted on March 19, 2014 at 1:13 pm
  2. You and your family come first…everyone else is along for the ride if they chose to make the effort.

    Posted on March 19, 2014 at 1:19 pm