All it takes is one thing to tip the first anxiety domino. Monday it was my iPhone.
Tuesday spent 2.5 hours at the mall so I could go to the apple store. You would think this was a positive in many ways:
1.) At least it happened before we went overseas
2.) All I lost were a few photos and text messages
3.) I was able to go to Babies R Us and buy some expensive travel crap for our trip
But no. Now I feel overwhelmed. I had to shuffle plans for the rest of the week and it’s making me freak out. Normally I’m a great traveller/ packer/ organizer. This time I feel lost and don’t know where to start. How can I pack baby stuff that I will need between now and then? How will I find the time to make a list? And this is only for my carry-on bag!
So what do I do? Start cancelling plans.
This does not make me feel good. I already went two days without a phone and now I’m going to have to miss out on a few social commitments. Talk about extending out the isolation. What is the universe trying to tell me?
I blogged about my feelings and was greeted by a touching response. Messages were still coming in when my phone died and I worry that kind people will think they are being ignored.
See what I mean- it all starts with a phone and suddenly I’m blowing off my friends and have to take a flight with no luggage. I’m being a bit dramatic here to make a point but still…
My second appointment with the shrink is today. I’m really looking forward to getting into things. The first visit was just me blabbing about my background (for two hours- can you say issues?) I’m just ready to get my hands on some tools to help me control my brain.